Today was the first day of final exam for my 3rd semester,
and the subject was CHINESE MODERN WRITING...
previously, I always think that the only subject I can do better than any others is language subject...because I really suck in math and science, can't even understand a single theory without being explained twice or maybe more than that...=_="I'm obviously a NOOB.
But I can do better in my language papers like English, Malay and Chinese.
I can manage to make myself study all of them~at least I can get what grammar is all about.

The night before today, I was like reading thousands and thousands of Chinese words repetitively for the sake of getting the contents deciphered and to memorize it too.
This is truly making the most miserable moment that I never ever wanna suffer it again..."
I tried to read at the first place, later I found out that I can't managed to read another single word, I changed to write it out instead. That time I'm finally blaming why all the Chinese words are so complicated?!and confusing too...a Chinese paragraph really takes time to write.

About 8 hours ago I was still struggling to answer my paper, with 4 major questions, I had already spent an hour for 2 questions, how am I gonna complete everything?!
there's only 1 hour left, and I gotta write an essay for my last question...must be more than 600 words.I was like DAMN!!!
I'm totally out of time and I end up writing only 300 words...
and that particular essay was the worst essay that I'd never write before...
How can?!I've been studying Chinese for so many years since I was 5...x.x...
This is really embarrassing and disappointing...REALLY...

and I wonder why the exam paper came out with the EXACT=,=" same essay topics which we had already done previously during tutorial lessons.
Like can you give any other topics besides that?!This is so annoying!!!
I expected for something different so I have new ideas!because of the same topic,
I was like trying to recall back whatever I wrote recently and I have no time to think something else with the same topic!ISSH...>_<"
and the bad thing is I can't write it that well, I don't memorize my own essay, why should I?!

argh...it disgust me...>,<"
I like languages...T^T...