I'm totally emotional right at this moment,
things are not gonna be changed,
I thought that no ones gonna blame who,
and everything will be back to normal...
but I was wrong...


I feel like a dead fish now...
chicken provides eggs; cow provides milk,
BUT, a fish...contributes nothing...but only itself...
I'd never been appreciated for doing anything...
and I never thought of being taken for granted...
and when I found out,
it hurts a lot...


I'm all these while trying to cut down arguments,
until today...I heard something like this...

"...it supposed to be your elder brother, so we can do better..."

I know I'm not as good as my brother,
and I never thought of replacing him!
and sorry...I'M NOT HIM...
now I really know that I'm such an idiot...
I should have know that earlier...


I'm hiding inside my room,
hearing things about me from another side of my door...
and I knew it...
Sorry for being a daughter who is exactly not what you've expected for,
you can blame me for not fulfilling what you wish for,
but you can't blame because you do not know me at all...
you really got no idea who the hell am I...


and thanks for today,
I realized that,
luckily I have a younger sister to replace me...
so that you can just ignore me...






I just feel like I wanna cry...